What am I feeling?!

Okay so lately I have been just down in the dumps. You could ask me why, but honestly I couldn't tell you! I have had no energy and no motivation! I am usually really upbeat! It could be the weather playing games with me, the fact that I never see my husband or just really exhausted taking care of the kids by myself. Hey it could even be all the weight I have gained and having trouble loosing! Or it could be everything in general... Who knows! I just know I want to feel like me again. I have been trying weight watchers and it is not going well, I pretty much fall off the wagon everyday. I I try working out but hate doing it by myself! I just get so discouraged so easily when it comes to loosing weight!

I haven't been able to see my husband much lately and that drives me crazy! Seeing him for a few hours a day or sometimes not seeing him for a couple days just doesn't cut it! I believe it is taking a huge toll on the kids as well! Gabe always asks if Dad will be home today/tonight and if I tell him no I can just tell the disappointment! It's awful! Rynn gets super excited when she hears the door open.. she always thinks its daddy! But when it is her Dad, she will clap her hands and then throw them up in the air so he can grab her.. its cute!

I don't know I just hope that things start to look up! I just want everything to be how it used to be! I think everything just got to me all at once and I guess you could call this my once in a year breakdown lol! I feel a little better just writing everything down and venting!

Life in a mixture!

UGGHH! I had surgery last week and so while I was down I was using my computer ALOT! One because I had nothing else to do lol and second I love my computer. Well three days after my surgery my laptop breaks! Talk about frustrating! I can turn it on but once its on I cant type or use my mouse and even if I plug in my wireless it still doesn't work.. so I pretty much friend the whole keyboard!! So I was calling around everywhere and to find out it is going to cost more to fix it compared to buying a new one!! Lance has his computer, its a desktop, but it is such a hassel to use. So after my long week of not having one, Lance bought me one last night and it will be here probably Thursday or Friday! Woo Hoo!! I have seriously been lost without my laptop! I am so used to getting on checking my email, bank account, myspace, weather, my blog, and everything else and it isn't easy to do with Lances computer!! So as soon as I get my computer I will be back trying to blog as well as trying to spice up my page LOL!

Other that nothing really else has been going! Lance starts his new schedule, instead of being on 12 off 3 he gets 11 on 4 off, which isn't the best but we will take anything to see him right now! He gets two weeks of vacation in March so we are going to try to go to Georgia to visit Ross, Amy and the kids and hopefully stay for a week! So that will be nice to get out of the cold and feel some warmth!

Gabe is halfway through the school year and still enjoys school! He has learned so much this year, we are so proud of him! He loves to draw, he is constantly drawing me pictures of houses and cars!

Rynn is getting so big! I can't believe how fast she is growing up! She babbles all sorts of things! I think her favorite thing to do is Hiss at the cat or play in brothers room while he is at school! She thinks she is being sneaky.

I hope everyone is enjoying the New Year and can't wait to see what everyone else has been up to! So as soon I get my computer I will be caught up! Talk to you all then!

Needing Help!

Blogging for the Clueless!!

Okay so I started blogging about a month ago and some things I understand and some things I don't. I put a background on my page and was super happy, and now for the life of me.. I can't change it.. PLEASE HELP!! So if anyone can please help to tell me how to change my background that would be great.

Next on my list is I tried putting up pictures with some writing underneath but it never turns out, it goes all over the place. I look at some people's blogs and it is perfect, they have their pictures and then like a little story underneath, well when I try that, it doesn't work, and believe me I worked on it for like three hours one night, and was VERY FRUSTRATED! So if anyone can help me with that please feel free to five me some pointers!!

Christmas 08

Merry Christmas

We had a great Christmas this year! Christmas and the New Years are my favorite. I love spending time with my family. To be honest I was getting a little irritated at the beginning of the holidays because I had not felt the Christmas spirit like I usually do around the holidays, but that all changed about a week before Christmas. Lance was able to be home a little more than usual and he actually got to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas and home with our family, which we thought was going to be very unlikely!

On Christmas Eve, we did our every year tradition. We ate a big dinner at Bobettes, which was very yummy, then drove around and looked at Christmas lights, and Oh my how beautiful they were, and when we were done with that we came home to watch a Christmas Story one of our favorites. We all fell asleep pretty early especially Gabe, he knew if he didn't go to sleep Santa would skip by our house!

Christmas morning Lance and I woke up before the kids and were excited to see their faces when they opened their Christmas gifts. Gabe had no idea what he was getting. Sometimes we give him clues but not this year! Gabe had fun tearing into the presents while Rynn had fun watching! After my living room was destroyed with wrapping paper and toys we then went over to Bobettes and ate and spend time with each other.

I am so thankful for my wonderful family and their beautiful spirits. I was very thankful that my husband got to spend Christmas with us and not at work. I am thankful for the gospel and everything that it has brought into our lives. People say we have changed and all I can do is smile because its the change that made us into the beautiful family that we are today!